Feeling Doubtful? Ask Yourself This Question.

There is an ache you feel inside you. There is no reason for it. You feel it anyway. Each day it sits like a heavy rock inside you. You know the truth. In fact, you are resolute to it. So, why is this nagging voice telling you something different? You wonder if something may not be as it seems.

You feel it swell inside you. The emotions of it all. At a tipping point. You could fall in so easily. Surrender. Be overwhelmed. But there is something inside you. It says don't swim down that lane. So you hold strong. You push it back down. It always returns...

Holding the wall hurts. It takes so much out of you. Then one day you stop and you look at it face on. You say the worst things. In the face of it, you realize it simply isn't true. So what is true? Who's really afraid? Who's feelings or thoughts are these — if not your own?

This is even harder to face. To realize maybe you aren't to blame. What if you are not in the wrong? What if you don't have to do something. Solve, heal, or fix something?

You understand something new. Something below the surface. The truth in a new way. You get angry. How could you have been the one to blame? You laugh cause nothing is as it always appears.

You call a spade a spade. You dig deep. You look honestly at others and society. You begin to see something. You are creating in your life. You are having something wonderful. You choose this life you are living. You are happy in it.

You didn't want to believe others might judge you. Be jealous. Want something different for you. Something that serves their lives. It wasn't about you. You felt that emotion so long because you resisted seeing other's judgements about you. Everyone is nice, right?

You suddenly feel the emotions again. This time you've got a name for it. You feel so angry and you want to blame someone. Instead you name this feeling. You name it as something that isn't your own.

What you are having inspires others. What you are having makes them jealous. To each their own. But you know the truth. It has always been inside of you. You have always stood by it. And you continue to stand by the truth now. You aren’t wrong. You are exactly where you planned. You are exactly where you belong.